Week 108

Skyline

Pinterest Sock Bun Curls

Turkey Trot 2011

Hazel lost her first tooth :(

Pinterest Project- Canvas with puffy paint and then I'll spray paint them white

My favorite person

Number of Weeks in “Losing” phase: 108


Week In Review

Music: I'll Be Home for Christmas by Michael Buble (How have I not heard his Christmas songs before! LOVE!)

There are so many outside forces when it comes to weight loss. Emotions play such a huge part in that. Especially being a woman. You can try so hard to stay positive and look at life in such an upbeat way but each and every day there are people and experiences and events that can change that in an instance. I had my feelings hurt immensely this week and I have no idea why. I think what hurts the most is that I don’t deserve to be treated like I’m worthless or insignificant or irrelevant or a burden to anyone’s life. I have a hard enough time dealing with conflict within myself. Trying to tell myself I’m beautiful and smart and strong and capable and worth it each and every day. It happens multiple times a day at work and with friends and even with family when you have to take certain comments or events and allow them NOT to affect your emotions or your feelings. Very hard to do. Sometimes it’s extremely draining, especially when you don’t ask for and/or deserve to be dealing with negative emotions. Sometimes you just need to focus on those positive areas of your life and surround yourself with people and situations that make you feel good about yourself and make you feel appreciated. Everyone is going through something in their lives. Whether that be with work, relationships, health, family, or friends. We all need to be more aware of others peoples feelings day in and day out. Depression, sadness, and loneliness can all be made that much worse just by simple words and actions of others who are completely unaware or ignorant of their impact. It’s important to be aware that life is not all about yourself. Be aware of what relationships you take for granted, the relationships that you put above everyone and everything else, or the relationships that you just completely miss out on because you can’t go through life alone. So we should all try to live life without making people feel anything else but loved and respected and valued. We all need that and deserve that.

I’ve also come to the 100% conclusion that diet is everything. I’ve heard this about 100 times but I can now say that by example, this is the truth. Bendoeslife.com is a blogger that I’ve talked about before who has an extremely inspiring story of weight loss. Recently he started realizing that instead of losing weight, like he promotes, he was gaining weight. And it’s not like he was just sitting around doing nothing. This guy was running 5k’s every week or two weeks, half-marathons, marathons, training, basically working his ass off. So how in the hell was his weight going up rather than down when he’s burning mass amounts of calories?? He finally updated his blog yesterday stating that diet is everything. Which again, is something that I’ve heard so many times. But again, his blog is a real life example of it. Not just some doctor or personal trainer or nutritionist that has never experienced obesity. He’s just like me. Lost weight. A lot of it. Gained too much back. And he’s experienced REAL LIFE. Each week, I work my ass off at kickboxing and see no results. So what does that boil down to..........DIET. So here’s the real issues. Why is it that I can make myself religiously work out and push myself beyond any level I’ve ever imagined but I can’t control my eating and drinking habits? I blame emotions for almost every food choice I make. Boredom. Sadness. Happiness. Loneliness. Anticipation. Anger. I could go on and on. But if you think about it, when someone passes away…..food. When we celebrate a holiday………food. When we celebrate a birthday or a going away party or a new baby…….food. When we go on vacation…..food. When we want to socialize…...food. Food is the go-to. And it’s not that these traditions or rituals will go away. When I’m 80, we’ll still be gathering around food. But it’s my choices and my decisions that I can change. The only key to me losing weight is my diet. Plan and simple. I have the exercise under control. But the only thing holding me back from weight loss is what I’m putting in my body. Ohh and Ben (from Bendoeslife) started watching what he was eating while still continuing his normal workouts and within 17 days, has already lost 7 pounds!

Speaking of food and diet……I’m going to New York City!! Where there’s an abundance of calories just waiting to be consumed!! Even though it’s been a rough week emotionally, it’s December. It was beautiful this morning. Christmas music was blaring in the car. I get to go to my favorite place on the Earth in 3 days. I get to mark seeing NYC during Christmas time off my bucket list! And I get to go with my amazing and wonderful family! I’ll try and post some pictures once I get back. Hope you all have a good rest of the week and take care!

Quote of the week:

“Keep your thoughts positive because your thoughts become your words. Keep your words positive because your words become your behavior. Keep your behavior positive because your behavior becomes your habits. Keep your habits positive because your habits become your values. Keep your values positive because your values become your destiny.”
-Mahatma Gandhi