Week 115

 Number of Weeks in “Losing” phase: 115

Week In Review

Music: will.i.am ‘The Hardest Ever’ – Great workout song!

Ahh the New Year has come in with a bang! That’s for sure. I’ve missed 2 weeks of blogging so wanted to make sure I gave a little update about what’s been going on. (And since I like lists SOOO much, here is another one!)

1. Been doing well on the New Years Resolutions for the most part. Haven’t smoked. No pop. Took a picture in manual mode (the Bokeh picture of the tree and ornaments above) but have no idea how to replicate it! Didn’t get the part time position with the IRS because I couldn’t work full time but have established a pretty good plan with finances. Since I got a Kindle Fire for Christmas, I’ve downloaded some “spiritual” books and have one about half way finished. Still need to work on doing something with the blog to keep it a little more interesting. The one thing that I have not done well AT ALL so far this year is relaxing and being more positive. I blame work 100% for that! But I’m trying and that counts for something!

2. Already been sick. TWICE. And I normally never get sick. So needless to say, I’ve had a lot of down time, missed workouts, missed work, no energy. I am somewhat back to normal now but it’s been about 6 days.

3. WORK. Just when I thought that the stress and the changes and the uncertainty were gone……BAM! Big switch up the first day back for 2012! Lots of things that I didn’t want to hear and a lot of things that make me feel like I’m going backwards and getting me NO WHERE. It’s hard when something that consumes such a huge part of your life makes you feel inadequate, unappreciated, and undervalued. Ahh, if only I could Pinterest my whole life! HA!

4. If I haven’t already expressed this, I HATE WEIGHT. I hate everything about it. I hate that it goes up. I hate that it goes down. I hate that I have to worry about it every. Single. Day. Of. My. Life. I hate that some people don’t have to worry about it every. Single. Day. Of. Their. Life. I could make a full 7 page blog post on all things I hate about weight. But the truth and the reality of the situation is that I have to hate weight or else I’ll be 316 pounds again. I have to worry about it or else I’ll be at 316 pounds again. I have to watch it go up and down and figure out how and why it’s going up and down or else I’ll be at 316 pounds again. I know some people understand what I’m talking about and some don’t but needless to say…..it’s exhausting and frustrating and just never ending. BUT. BUT. BUT. When I worry about it, make it a daily habit to worry about it, the number goes down. I’ve been taking a picture of my weight and weighing myself daily. I’ve been tracking every single thing that I eat each day. I’ve been planning ahead and organizing my weekly routines. And you know what? The weight has gone down. Yes I hate that I’m worried about my weight each morning and I hate that I have to remember and write down what I eat each day and I hate that I have to pre-cook and pre-plan the weeks meals every single Sunday but the truth is in the number! When I do those things, I see results and I see success.

5. On a lighter note, a few weeks ago, someone put flowers on my windshield! Still have no idea who they’re from or what they were for but someone gave me roses! No note. No card. No message. Just some red roses! So the mystery still remains unsolved……HA!

6. I put some pics up from New Years! We had a blast! The theme was Cowboys and Indians and it was quite entertaining! A great end to a great year! Hope you all have been having a great start to the New Year!

Quote of the week:

“It’s a good day to have a good day!”